Imperfect

It seems sometimes I am harder on myself than anyone else really is. I try to live up to this mountain of expectation I have set for myself, then feel like a failure when I can't do it. While, I realize that no matter what i do, I will not be perfect, I still try my best to be. And am always letting myself down. So, I guess, the only thing that I do have control over is doing my best to be the best person I can be, and forgive myself when I can't.

Human Trafficking

I first learned about human trafficking when I was 31 years old, just about seven months ago when I attended a onething conference with The International House of Prayer. To say the least I was shocked. I have learned that children younger than my own are being forced into prostitution, children as young as four years old! These are babies. And don't think it's only in foreign countries that this is happening. It's happening right in our back yards, in Kansas City. This has to be stopped! We have to stop the human trafficking industry, and we don't even have to leave home to do it. Stand with me!

Being open to love

For normal people, love is pretty easy, isn't it? You meet someone and you fall in love. You give them your love, and you receive theirs. But it's not always that easy for everyone. In a perfect world, that's the way it would work, but as we all know we don't live in a perfect world.

Sometimes, circumstances and/or situations, can affect the way we give or receive love. Sometimes, we can be so damaged that giving or receiving love proves to be very difficult. Maybe we've been hurt so badly in the past, by others, that we're scared to try again. Maybe we've lost faith in the power of love. Or maybe we've become so jaded, we simply don't believe in it anymore. I, myself, have experienced all three. Then wondered, why love always eludes me. When the simple fact of the matter is that you have to be completely open to it. You have to be able to risk it all, and give your everything to someone else. It's not always easy, and sometimes, it's even wrong. But in order to find that real, lasting kind of love, we all have to be open to that kind of risk. While it could end in the kind of heartwrenching pain we don't wish upon our worst enemy, it could also end in a love greater than anything we've ever known. So, I don't know about you, but I'm going to take that chance, and just see where it takes me.

Purity

Purity

Everyone says I’m crazy, that I can’t start over

They say I can’t keep playing this game of pretend

They say it’s just too late

They say it’s like putting the ink back in the pen

But You’ve given me another chance

I say it’s never too late

To save it for the one who is worthy

I have been given a clean slate

I wasn’t perfect in my past, I made my mistakes

I lived for myself, doing what I wanted to do

But you have made me pure again, like an infant being born again

Living for what is good and true

I know he is waiting at the end of an untraveled road

Somewhere I have yet to find

And because I have renewed my vow

It will be like the first time

So I may not fit in with what everyone’s doing

And that is just fine with me

You can keep telling me “ It’s not the same”

But Jesus has renewed my purity

When that day comes

I will walk down the aisle wearing a flowing dress of white

I will take his hands, look into his eyes

And only on that night will we unite

This is me

Being that I am 32, it's taken me a long time to get to this point. I am finally happy. I am happy with who I am, without a man. In the past, there have been times that I literally felt like I needed a man to survive, to be happy. I don't feel that way anymore. Now, I know that I want a man, and I know the kind of man I want. I also know that I won't settle for anything less than what I want, what is best for me, and what I deserve. It has taken me a long time to get to this point, and now that I am here, it feels wonderful. I want the whole shebang. I want to meet someone I have an amazing connection with, I want to meet the man I'll fall in love with and someday call "husband". But I also want to meet the man that God wants me to be with. Maybe I'll meet him here, maybe not. But I have the learned the most important lesson of all, with or without him, I will be happy and I will have a good life. Because in the end, I have the most important man of all and that man is Jesus.

Green

I've never considered myself a "green" person before, but now, well all that's changed. The recent oil spill in the Gulf of Mexico that is the responsibility and the fault of BP is an outrage to me! One, these big businesses do things like this and then scramble to cover their own butts rather than just take responsibility and fix the messes THEY created! 583 sea turtles have been found dead, that's not forgetting the birds, dolphins, and "other mammals" that have been found dead. And not just the wildlife that BP has murdered, and continues to murder as the oil leak continues to spread, but what about the human lives affected by this oil spill? If you think this doesn't affect all of us, you're wrong! We as a nation are constantly complaining about immigration laws. We're constantly asking why "foreigners" can't just stay in their own countries. Then, can someone please tell me, why our workers are being forced to go to these other countries to find work because the oil spill has cost them their livelihood? And why BP is refusing to let "outsiders" in to help clean up this oil spill? They will actually have you arrested! So, now it's against the law to try and make this world a better place? And why on earth would we trust the very people who caused this catastrophe to happen to clean it up? Are they completely insane? I've often heard it said that money goes to your head, and in the case of BP, this is true. I am calling on everyone to take a stand on this issue! I, for one, refuse to use BP gasoline! I will boycott BP!