I am??????

You know I don't know when it was that I started hating myself. I don't know whether it was a moment in time, or some traumatic incident, or some harsh word that made me not want to be me anymore. But I do know that it started in childhood. And I do know there was no one to say, it's okay to just be yourself. And there was no one to say you're really smart. Or youre really creative. Or you're beautiful. Or I think your stutter is just adorable. But there was some point in time when it was clear that it wasn't good enough to be just me. I needed to be someone else, or be like someone else in order to feel complete. So, I would take little bits and pieces of other people; the way they talked, the way they walked, the way they winked or smiled or the way their lip quivered when they cried and that became a part of me. It became a part of who I was. It didn't matter who it was. It could've been a girl from school, or a singer, or an actress, but I just wasn't good enough to be me. Until it got to the point that I wasn't me anymore. I was this puzzle and every piece was made up of nuances of other people. So, when you see me, you're not seeing me at all. You're seeing the me I've constructed. Because the real me wasn't good enough.

MEAN GIRLS....AND BOYS

With the flux of mean, insulting messages on social sites like facebook, twitter, and myspace (does anyone even use myspace anymore), it has become clear that people feel that it is necessary to tear other people down. In the bible it says to love the lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul and with all your might, and to love one another as you would love yourself. But what happens when you don't love yourself? Then you feel the need to tear others down, regardless if what you are saying is true or a cruelly, fabricated lie. God doesn't want us to tear each other down, He wants us to lift each other up. Just because you may feel bad about yourself, and it may make you feel better by hurting someone else doesn't make it right. If you have a problem with someone, use maturity and deal with them one on one. Don't blast them on facebook. Didn't your momma teach you better than that? If not then I feel sorry for you and for your parents. It takes a lot more energy to be mean to others than to treat them with love. So, stop being mean. It doesn't make you a better person, and in the end, it won't make you feel better. And if you have a conscience, it will in the end make you feel worse. So like the old adage goes:if you can't say anything nice, keep your trap shut! We should be treating people with love not hate.