The "Fun" Girl

When I was a kid, I wanted nothing more than to be in the popular crowd. They were the pretty people. They drove the best cars. They wore the best clothes. They had the best times. Well, I never was in the popular crowd. But when I became older, I became a part of a different kind of crowd. I was in the party crowd. We wore the best clothes. We went to the best places. We had the best times. And we definitely attracted attention. Where I lacked the attention of all the most popular guys in high school, I was definitely making up for now. I was attracting men right and left. The fact that they weren't the right kind of men or the right kind of attention didn't matter. All that mattered was that I was attracting them.

Of course, now I'm not the "Fun" girl anymore. I'm the good girl, and well she's just no fun. That's what some people would tell you. Sure, I don't smoke, drink, or cuss anymore. I don't go to bars, and I don't sleep around. I won't laugh at the inappropriate jokes I used to laugh at, and if you send me one of "those" forward texts, I will immediately delete it.

One of the main things that makes me not the "Fun" girl is my decision to be celibate until marriage. That's right, no sex of any kind until I'm wearing that long, white gown and a ring on my left hand. This also makes dating very difficult. This is one of the reasons I don't date. When you tell a guy you're celibate, one of two things happens. One, he runs in the other direction ( bye bye). Or two, he tells you that you're just so beautiful and amazing and sooooo worth the wait. That is, until he realized that you really mean it and all the flattery and pretty words in the world won't get him down your pants. Then he's running trying to catch up with the first guy.

Celibacy is a choice, but it is also a commandment. God commands us to be chaste. He commands us to use sex in the way it was intended. " We must not pursue the kind of sex that avoids committment and intimacy, leaving us more lonely than ever-the kind of sex that can never ' become one'."-1 corinthians 6 16-20. I choose celibacy because I know what I do in this life affects where I end up in the next.

So, no, I may not be the "fun" girl I used to be. But one of these days, God is going to send me a man who sees me for me. This man will see my physical appearance and want to be with me (because he is a human man), but he will also fall in love with my heart and soul. He will also choose celibacy. He will choose celibacy because it is what God commands. He will choose celibacy because he loves me more than he loves sex. That love is what will carry us through this lifetime. The sex will eventually stop. That love between my future husband and I never will.