I used to be an emotional mess. I don't mean cry at a sad movie mess. I mean a REAL mess. And it happened everywhere! I used to wish that I didn't have so much emotion in me. I felt weak and crazy. Then I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder (not the same as multiple personality disorder). So I started dbt or dialectical behavior therapy. I still fell apart but not as frequently or way less on the massive scale. It took me two years but I started to get better. Then on new years eve I made a command decision. I decided that other people's actions affect how I feel about myself. I soon found that I was so good at hiding my emotions that I hid them from myself. Now it's so easy to cast people aside that I miss having free emotions. If anyone causes me or my family pain I just cast them aside. So I guess I'm still a work in progress.
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