From the time my eyes slowly opened this morning and I looked at my phone, I knew today was not going to be a good day. I was missing a text message that should have been there. A whole range of emotions ran through me like the white water rapids on a warm spring day. As I waited for that message I didn't know if I should feel angry or sad or feel the terror that something might be seriously wrong. As it turned out that text message did come, but not before that terror did come. Today was supposed to be a celebration, but there was nothing to celebrate. The terror I was feeling now had a name. Since i don't know the medical term, we'll call it what we do know. Someone very important to me has a bruise on his brain. It could cause bleeding in the brain, a stroke, an aneurysm, it can even cause death. It was almost like going into a haunted house. You walk in there knowing that there will be things to be scared of , but you don't know what will jump out at you. In this case, they were medical monsters, but instead of knowing you will come to an exit and be able to escape. there is no escape. You dont know what the end result will be. Will it be joy or pain?
This day was supposed to one of joy and laughter and love. But instead it's filled with pain, worry, tears (that I swore I wouldnt cry. Well at least no one saw it), and loneliness. This isn't how you expected this day to go. This isn't how you expected your life to go. But in the end, this is where you are. All you got from this day was a lesson. The lesson is this: don't have expectations of life events, don't have expectations of other people. Because when you expect things from other people, you run the risk of being let down. And I'd rather be blissfully ignorant than let down.
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